Its so crazy how much you mean to me,i just saw a picture of you and my heart was beating like crazy it felt like it was going 100x10 or even faster, had the same feeling as looking at you,i don't want you let you go,baby you are the one i waited for...you are my prince and only guy that has my heart.

I want to cry so bad..but i stop myself and i say"no no don't cry." if i only had you standing infront of me i would tell you how i feel,but i just want to close my eyes and pictured you being here....You were my good friend remembered the first time you called me,oh well yo actually left me a voice message i didn't answer i left my phone in my bed and it was on vibrate, when i came back to my room i was he called me and that's how our friendship started and you know what you wanted ..hehe me. And our friendship grew more step by step those late phone calls and then out of now where i started to like you and i told myself to look at your flaws and i was like nooo don't like him screaming inside of me only i knew the feelings i had,and then little by little i was like wait a minute i think he likes me too but we were only friend...during those late phone calls,loooong talks every minute this feeling became bigger and all i had in my head was you,and how me and you were so similar yet different.

Jake since we were friend i knew with all my heart you were the one for me,i waited for you for sooo many years and you finally showed up,you were my first everything,i waited for you and when i found you i couldn't believe you were here, every day in this relationship i was falling and falling in love with you,hey is not so hard when a guy like you is always there for me. if you were here i would look at you and your eyes and with any doubts will tell you that i love you,since the 1st day that you walked in my life,you completely changed everything,now i am not the same person... and days life this are so hard without you,you say you have the same feelings as me but why is this happening...this situation hurts me,it like life looks black and white to me,i need you more than everything more than the air i breath..i am nothing without you,decision is on your hands,do what is best for you.


you have a big part of my hear,please don't go do it for the love me and you have...you are my all

still in Love with you,not hearing from you makes me go crazy but you know what today i realized that is normal,not really but i want to see it as something natural,when you are in love with someone,they are the only thing in your mind,you feel butterflies in your belly when you see them,y laugh at everything they say even if its not funny and she/he might be saying stuff that doesn't make sense because they are nervous too and they laugh and that's how the days go and you do so much for them,you sacrifice a lot even if it looks like you are doing nothing.

Time,you sacrifice that but because you are in love you don't see it that way but rather as a beautiful time spend together with the person that means the world to you,and that shouldn't stop. But many when they get married or maybe not even married get to this place where you don't see your relationship as it used to be when you two were dating everything looked better.

Now the years have pass and that's all in the past,how can you fall in love again with the person that meant the world to you,well....start thinking about how you guys met,the first date who did what,who made the first move and let your mind go back in time by this time you know your partner pretty well do stuff that make them happy and start to show your love to them step by step,you get what you give stop saying i wish i had that kind of relationship where love is there,you can have it. Go for it and you see life would be so much better,you never know when is going to be the last day you will have them,it might be today,tomorrow,in a week, i a year we don't know. Is never to late to Love.

Today it hit me how much i love you and i don't to let you go, God gave me you for a reason you completed me,you make my life feel like it make sense,you are one of my reason to live and continue fighting every day,i don't want to give up on you but rather fall in love for you even more...and for now on i don't care if you are the only thing in my mind,you are on my thoughts and if i find myself thinking of you its because you belong there and most important you belong in my heart my sweet one.

My love for you still the same,and now its even better. This love that i have hold for so long now by each day is getting stronger and bigger by the days its growing,it feels like not so long ago was like a little seed but time has being watering this small seed and by each minute keeps growing i don't even recognize it anymore,but yet is so beautiful and for nothing in this world i would change it.

God,destiny,life has its ups and downs and i want to be there when you need me the most,you are the only person that completes me,without you i am nothing just a normal individual,and life has more prepare for me and you our love story has not been told yet,maybe one day we can look back and laugh at this situation, tell our kids or maybe grand-kids our love story. That it felt like a novel,but it was so real and that's what makes it more beautiful.

Life would continue but with you not next to me,would be hard...i am scared to find out what the decision would be in this coming months,would you stay or would you leave.I know this is hard for you too,but like you say if you leave you would come back but i don't want you to leave at all,stay here forever with me by my side my love,look me in my eyes and tell me everything would be okay,tell me that things are not going to change.

But what if..you move and stay in that far away land,and what if you change and become somebody else that's my only fear,what if you meet somebody else much better than me,much prettier than me,most beautiful than me,someone that actually share the same-things in common with you,someone similar to you and they like the same-things you do,it would break my heart but i just want to tell you...if you are happy i am happy,maybe love is not for me.

-to my sweet one,the only that holds my heart.

oh this feelings are killing me

Why are you doing this to me?
You are killing me slowly...i can't take this my heart is in so much pain,honestly i don't know what to do anymore i am just living every day just like any day same routine. I miss you sooo much! if you know how much i miss you maybe things would change things or perhaps it wouldn't change nothing at all.

It feels like a knife its on my heart and every day its hurting more.This pain is so intense that i don't know if i am going to be able to make it,my body is giving up but my heart is telling to keep on fighting and my mind tries to shut down that voice.

This feeling is killing me and you haven't even step a foot in that airplane that would take you to a land far away from me,sometimes i wonder if i was the problem. Did i came in a bad time in your life or maybe you were ready for me or i was not good enough for so ....so many questions i have on my head and they keep repeating all over again.

Maybe i am the problem or i was the problem of your life and you are running away from me, or everything was an excuse just to walk away for me,i have question that only you could answer me and nobody else,i try answering them but is not the samething.

I think this is normal that i am still confuse about all this situation,maybe i don't need to understand but rather trust in God and know that he has my life i control,just wish things were this way. 

We get at a point that we began to lose who we really are and do  things that are not like us and now you don't even recognize yourself,its like you are not you any more. Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself is this really me and if the answer is no,you know its time to change.

If you can see it you can fix it,its never too late to fix it. Take control  of your life and don't let any circumstance change you,but rather make you into the strong person you were meant to be. Strong doesn't mean being mean simply giving a step of faith because you know what is yet to come is better and that's why you stand firm.

Let your life be a sweet song,and each melody change those around you. Its a sweet touch compared like nothing else. Began to speak what you what to see,our words have power,if all you are speaking is negative that's what you would get. Speak life into your words.

I see you and see me we are not the same and all because we lost our first love,our eyes began to see on a different direction. A direction where you and me were all that it mattered and we failed so bad,i wanna go back to where we started. Where love was so pure and not evil,hold my hand and take me where we were meant to we.

we skip soo...many steps and you more than no-one knows it was not the best thing,even if we thought it was,lets sing together to the one that deserves it all. Let the new song arise,like a sweet perfume that come from the bottom of our hearts.

I wake up,you're in my mind. I go to bed and you are still in my mind, don't know what to called it now. Many said that this (feelings/emotions) would be over so fast but in reality it has not been this way,some understand but many don't.

As humans we move on and continue life,hey that's the point right. But is so hard to continue,specially when everything reminds me of you and i keep telling myself to hate you because you are the only person in my whole life that hurt me the most. I didn't know how much you meant to me,but once you walk away it just hit me sooo hard and is not because i'm afraid of being alone but because not having you right here next to me,it felt like i was not myself.

The time we were together was the most amazing time and time flew away so fast in our hands,hours felt like minutes and the end of the day was the hard part for me. Having to say goodbye to you,but like we said "this is just a see you later."

And now the real goodbye has come,i hate to do this but once again this was not my decision. You know that saying that goes something like this..if this was yours it would come back,but if never belong to you in the first place it might not come around. When you love you simply do what is the best for the other person.

Now in this days all i have are memories but pretty soon it would be more memories. Time and destiny will keep us apart,i wish you the best in your new life. We will be separated by thousands of miles but just know that you always are going to be right here in my heart where you belong.

Today, i stood infront of you and with any doubts in my heart i knew you where the one for me. Sometimes i wonder if there is really a special person for you or in other words the right one,growing up i always believe in my heart that it was this way, but now that i have grow up i felt like that was something people say.

But no..its real,every time you are infront of me and a see you in your eyes i know God made you for me,you are the most perfect person i have ever meet in my life and yes even while writing this can't help to cry, tears just come out of my eyes,my hearts feels warm and can't explain this feeling.

And yes i again, i wonder why is this happening to me. Having you so close to me but yet not having you, i wish you could read this and make a decision that is going to affect  both of us. There are not enough words to say how much i love you.